Gah!

Argh!

Work this morning was CRAZY! It's hard being there only the short amount of time that I am. I enjoy the work and am grateful for the extra hours, but is a little communication too much to ask for???

I get frustrated when I'm there, and then virtually ignored by the classroom's teacher. Yes, you are the teacher, but seriously if you want this classroom to function well, you need to communicate with me!! How am I to know that you told someone they could be the line leader? Because believe it or not, it's a big freaking deal in preschool. I also get that you are stuck between a rock and a hard place, but to a certain degree you have some control over it. They take control of the class because YOU let them! Sometimes this whole let's talk it out until we're both blue in the face about why you telling other kids to make bad choices is not effective. For crying out loud, children need boundaries!!!!

Not to mention one of my kids threw a fit and hit me twice today, and also called me a jerk about 3 times. It's put me in a foul mood. I just don't know what to do about it anymore. I'm willing to help, but what it really comes down to is that people have to be accepting of that help. So until then, I'm gonna do my part, my responsibilities, show up on time, and leave when I'm scheduled to. I'm willing to go above and beyond but not when it's this difficult for me.

Rain, Rain, Rain

Well, it's raining again...hasn't done that in like a week! Oh man!

It was a LONG week, but a good one all in all. My desire for writing is coming back. It's been gone for too long....

I'm getting closer to my work friends. I enjoy them. A lot. It's funny what a difference having people who care and understand where you're at makes. I'm glad for it.

I have a few things left to do for my Soc class, and then I'll be done! And have a two week break from classes :)

I guess since I'm here as the Pi Party is starting I should go join friends for a bit.

But Dash has discovered my new favorite artist...City and Colour. It's amazing. And it's tulip season again. What more could you ask for?

LIFE IS GOOD. And in this moment right now, I'm happy and grateful to be here. I've gotta hold onto these moments when they come and hope they stay for a while.

Good day to you all.

Feels good...

For the first time in a long time, I actually felt good enough to go for a run. It was shorter, but I didn't want to take advantage of the feeling and over do it. It felt really good to get out for a while. My body is doing really well right now, and the knee is holding up. I'll put some ice on it a bit just to be on the safe side.

I just got off the phone with my brother. I haven't really talked with him in a while. I've missed him a lot lately and enjoy talking with him when I'm able to. One of the nice things about birthdays is that people make a point to call or email or somehow find a way to talk with you. I like that people take the time for that. It's a nice present. I like getting things, too, but life has been so busy lately and since I don't get to see or talk with my family often, it's perfect just to hear from them. For them to call when normally those things don't happen.

The vase is still sitting on my desk awaiting superglue, alas. It may be there for a while yet.

Broken glass

Yesterday, I broke a vase in the kitchen. I wasn't very happy about it. Although, I must admit that I was mad at the time that I broke the vase. It wasn't on purpose, but it was sitting on the windowsill, and I was changing the towel underneath the dish rack that caught on the blinds, which knocked the vase over.

It's sitting on my desk waiting for some superglue, so Dash can try to fix it. It won't be perfect, but I'd still like it to be usable. I bought the vase last year when I was feeling a bit lonely. I went down to Fairhaven and found this beautiful vase at a local flower and garden accessory place. It's green with a yellow rim. It's tiny, but it's held many flowers for me. I bought it in an effort to brighten up my dorm room. Most of the flowers it's held have been ones that I've purchased for myself. It's been this homage of sorts to my many adventures in Bellingham. I guess I could replace it or simply use the pieces as an art project, but I'd rather not just yet.

On a happy note, today was a great day at my afternoon site. Dash came to pick me up while we were still playing on the playground. Two of my kids stood at the fence and wanted me to stay. One of my boys ran along the fence as we drove away. It was the cutest thing ever. It's nice to be making new memories here. I'm feeling more and more grounded in the community around the school I work at. I'm getting to know the people who work there and the families that are involved in the school. It's a huge aspect of my being settled here. I'm looking forward to being there for many years, and I hope that it'll be that way. I think it will, but I'm not 100% sure.

In just a few days, I turn 20. It's not very exciting, I don't feel like. I mean it's a birthday, so that's nice, but on another level it's just another year. It'll be low-key this year, which is nice considering that next year won't really be low-key at all.

I started filling out my returning student application for Western today. It's due soon, and I'm getting more and more hopeful that things really will work out for me.