I realized that I got sidetracked...let's face it, I knew it going into it...but a few things have kept coming back to me when I think about the things I'm thankful for...
-Dash...everyday I am thankful for him. He takes care of me when I'm sick, and will always make me his number one priority...even if it's inconvenient for him. I am lucky to have him.
-Coffee...I really missed coffee last week when I got sick. Before today, I hadn't had any coffee for 5 days...that's monumental. Coffee is one of those things that makes me feel like home is wherever I happen to be having a good cup of coffee. Perhaps I've coined a new slogan?
-My family...even when it's hard. And trust me, there have been some really, really HARD moments recently. I'm still thankful for them. They make my life work, but they also drive me crazy. But I'm lucky to have a family that I can fight with and know they will still love me.
-Frasier...and other silly t.v. shows. Dash and I have been on a Frasier kick lately. Thank you netflix for coming through with all the seasons! We're almost through the series, and they have been lovely to have on sick days.
-My job...some moments are crazy, but it's still so much fun. And so good for me right now!
-New beginnings...things are about to change for me. I'm looking forward to a new beginning, to a new chapter. It's about time. I'm excited to have time to read for fun and spend more time with friends.
-My car...I am so lucky to have a good, reliable car. It's not the prettiest thing out there, but it runs...and it runs well!
-My kindle...I love having so many things to read at my fingertips! For a true book lover, this is such a treat!
-A place to call home...for so many years, I've felt like I was just in transition. Bellingham was never really home. It was just the place I was for a few years. But Seattle is so much different for me. I am home. This place fits me. Why? I'm not sure I'll ever know, but I do know that it fits. And when I look around me, I feel at home. I've missed that feeling. I'm still convinced that "home" is so many different things. But the feeling of being "home" on a daily basis is pretty amazing.
Monday, November 28, 2011
papers
dear schoolwork...i was wondering if maybe, just maybe, you could somehow let the last assignments slide? i mean, come one, surely these last two papers and this last book could write and read themselves? i just think it'd be great if they could just be done. no?? damn. but boy am i glad i got more coffee...
Monday, November 14, 2011
13, 14
Day 13 (Sunday)
I am thankful for the kitchen. I greatly appreciate being able to cook, and that I enjoy it. It's so nice to relax in the kitchen, even though it can be exhausting. It's also nice to know that I can make good, healthier food for Dash to have at hand during the week.
Day 14 (Monday)
Today I am thankful for silly moments. Spending time with the boys I nanny for and laughing with them just makes my heart soar. It's just so great to have silly moments and laugh.
I am thankful for the kitchen. I greatly appreciate being able to cook, and that I enjoy it. It's so nice to relax in the kitchen, even though it can be exhausting. It's also nice to know that I can make good, healthier food for Dash to have at hand during the week.
Day 14 (Monday)
Today I am thankful for silly moments. Spending time with the boys I nanny for and laughing with them just makes my heart soar. It's just so great to have silly moments and laugh.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
10, 11, 12
Day 10 (Thursday)
I am thankful to have a job. Thankful to be making a good income for me at this point in my life. Thankful that I have the means. I hope to be able give back more in the future.
Day 11 (Friday)
I am thankful for an actual date night out with Dash and for going to see a movie in Theatres that didn't actually suck.
Day 12 (Saturday)
I am thankful for seeing old friends. It's nice to be able to stay in touch with the people who've been a part of my life.
I am thankful to have a job. Thankful to be making a good income for me at this point in my life. Thankful that I have the means. I hope to be able give back more in the future.
Day 11 (Friday)
I am thankful for an actual date night out with Dash and for going to see a movie in Theatres that didn't actually suck.
Day 12 (Saturday)
I am thankful for seeing old friends. It's nice to be able to stay in touch with the people who've been a part of my life.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Giving Thanks....
As per usual, I'm behind on blogging... maybe this was a bit too ambitious for me right now. But oh well. I'll still try and keep it up.
Day 3 (Thursday)
I am thankful for technology..for being able to be connected with those far from me
Day 4 (Friday)
I am thankful for quiet moments. Sometimes life just doesn't have enough of those.
Day 5 (Saturday)
I am thankful for the ability to lay on the couch and watch t.v. It's helpful when getting over a sinus infection.
Day 6 (Sunday)
I am thankful for time...given to me by others when they could've used the time for themselves....for an extra hour of sleep, too :)
Day 7 (Monday)
I am thankful for freshly brewed coffee...and the ability to have it whenever my heart desires it at work.
Day 8 (Tuesday)
I am thankful for waking up early (when I don't actually have to be up) and knowing that there is still so much of my day left. Although extra sleep might have been nice too.
Day 3 (Thursday)
I am thankful for technology..for being able to be connected with those far from me
Day 4 (Friday)
I am thankful for quiet moments. Sometimes life just doesn't have enough of those.
Day 5 (Saturday)
I am thankful for the ability to lay on the couch and watch t.v. It's helpful when getting over a sinus infection.
Day 6 (Sunday)
I am thankful for time...given to me by others when they could've used the time for themselves....for an extra hour of sleep, too :)
Day 7 (Monday)
I am thankful for freshly brewed coffee...and the ability to have it whenever my heart desires it at work.
Day 8 (Tuesday)
I am thankful for waking up early (when I don't actually have to be up) and knowing that there is still so much of my day left. Although extra sleep might have been nice too.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
A blog I wrote back in February and recently stumbled upon...
I've realized recently that getting around to blogging has been low on my to-do list. Winter quarter comes with such fury and passes so quickly, that getting everything I want to get done doesn't always happen. Not that the case is any different for the other quarters, but Winter quarter is shorter...
I tend to prioritize my life and my time by asking myself the question, "what do I need to do now?" This tends t o be a pretty effective question in terms of getting things done. However, I've realized that it is not effective in addressing MY needs. I ask what needs to get done? And I get done what needs to get done, often at the expensive of my sanity or desires. I've accepted that this is where I am at in my life. At least for a long time, I've felt that this was the most effective way to get things accomplished. And if accomplishment is all I'm after, then I'm definitely on the right track. But recently, I've started to look at things differently. This change in perspective has been slow...very slow in coming. I feel that since living in Nashville my life has been based on "SURVIVAL." The traits of just surviving don't fade so quickly. Dash and I tend to have this conversation often. Him saying that I don't have to just survive anymore, and me responding with I just don't know how NOT to survive anymore. There are so many things that I'd love to do right now. I'd love to work harder in school and make better grades, I'd love to lose some weight, I'd love to have more time for friends. But I've chosen to be a working student. I spend more hours in a week working than I do in school. Sure, there are ways that I could skirt around this whole working thing, but none of them make sense for me or for my family. Because let's face it, unless you're over 24, married, or loaded with money, a kid going to college is really a family ordeal. In this society, we try to downplay the role that the family plays in a kid going off to college. But the system is definitely not set up that way.
I feel that I spend so much of time just going that stopping feels wrong. But recently I've realized that I'm tired. Running this race through college is exhausting. I wouldn't have it any other way, mind you, but it's hard. And I refuse to be a 6 year undergraduate student. Because let's face it, being in college for that long, living in Bellingham is just not going to work for me. Bellingham and I have had a wonderful 3.5 years together, but after college, there's not going to be much left for me here. And realistically in Psychology you have to have more than a BA, so if I'm going to be in school for that long, I'd like to have more than just a BA to show for it.
Anyways, back to my point. I've somehow changed the question that I ask myself now...And honestly, I can't tell you how it changed, just that it did. So the question that I've now started asking..."Can I live with this not getting done?"
I tend to prioritize my life and my time by asking myself the question, "what do I need to do now?" This tends t o be a pretty effective question in terms of getting things done. However, I've realized that it is not effective in addressing MY needs. I ask what needs to get done? And I get done what needs to get done, often at the expensive of my sanity or desires. I've accepted that this is where I am at in my life. At least for a long time, I've felt that this was the most effective way to get things accomplished. And if accomplishment is all I'm after, then I'm definitely on the right track. But recently, I've started to look at things differently. This change in perspective has been slow...very slow in coming. I feel that since living in Nashville my life has been based on "SURVIVAL." The traits of just surviving don't fade so quickly. Dash and I tend to have this conversation often. Him saying that I don't have to just survive anymore, and me responding with I just don't know how NOT to survive anymore. There are so many things that I'd love to do right now. I'd love to work harder in school and make better grades, I'd love to lose some weight, I'd love to have more time for friends. But I've chosen to be a working student. I spend more hours in a week working than I do in school. Sure, there are ways that I could skirt around this whole working thing, but none of them make sense for me or for my family. Because let's face it, unless you're over 24, married, or loaded with money, a kid going to college is really a family ordeal. In this society, we try to downplay the role that the family plays in a kid going off to college. But the system is definitely not set up that way.
I feel that I spend so much of time just going that stopping feels wrong. But recently I've realized that I'm tired. Running this race through college is exhausting. I wouldn't have it any other way, mind you, but it's hard. And I refuse to be a 6 year undergraduate student. Because let's face it, being in college for that long, living in Bellingham is just not going to work for me. Bellingham and I have had a wonderful 3.5 years together, but after college, there's not going to be much left for me here. And realistically in Psychology you have to have more than a BA, so if I'm going to be in school for that long, I'd like to have more than just a BA to show for it.
Anyways, back to my point. I've somehow changed the question that I ask myself now...And honestly, I can't tell you how it changed, just that it did. So the question that I've now started asking..."Can I live with this not getting done?"
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